how i feel

mood: shitty. esteem: low. self-pity: high.

no good can come of this. deleted a rant trying to describe everything i felt today. it's been awhile since the pendulum swung back towards the bad. but here it is. no liver pangs to make it worse thankfully. the only bright side. i've no fucking clue why i am currently feeling this way.

i do not want to analyze it or not act on it or drink it away. just want it gone.