good, but weird

feeling good, but weird. feel like i am still in transit: job's been changing a lot, home's changed completely, emotions change with the wind, friend's lives are in flux.

i remind myself that change is good. and, long term, it is a good thing. in the meantime, i am acknowledging this so i deal more with the feelings of unease it causes me.

bottom line? i'm a pussy.

example: i've been psycho-paranoid at work lately due to my own insecurities. i've woken up early, without an alarm, thinking about work. twisting, turning and i've literally broken out in a sweat...over WORK. wtf?

thankfully, going with my gut continues to pay off. and luckily i am not questioning myself. but getting this double-jointed over ads? gotta be an easier way to realize the success i am having.

a co-worker and i decided that the "crosses" we bear in life are fucking gifts in comparison to what others deal with and go through. realizing this also helps me snap out of things and just move forward. if you let the emotions speak to you too much, you believe them (note: i am not, nor have i ever heard voices of any kind, thankyouverymuch). if you listen to them, or consider them facts, you forget to move through them. you wind up giving up on things getting better.

switching gears, i am looking forward to Thanksgiving and Christmas—which are eerily closing in on us. good time to spend with daughter and wife.