signs

looking back through my journals, I had plenty of signs about my alcoholism. in fact, I 'd often tell myself I'd quit once I hit bottom...if I really did have a problem. it allowed me to keep drinking.

I liked the song, "I'm not an addict" by K's Choice, the first time I heard it. It's a good listen. It's even on one of my many mixes. And as I would listen, I would remind myself I'd quit once I hit bottom.

Well, thankfully, I did hit bottom. It was such a relief I cannot describe it to you. It literally felt as if I woke up from a Rip Van Winkle sleep when I finally accepted the fact.

I still like the song from K's Choice. It's still a good listen and it does a good job of capturing how it felt when I was active and rationalizing. As one of the many signs that were screaming at me, I offer the lyrics below:

Not an Addict

Breathe it in and breathe it out
And pass it on, it's almost out
We're so creative, so much more
We're high above but on the floor

It's not a habit, it's cool, I feel alive
If you don't have it you're on the other side

The deeper you stick it in your vein
The deeper the thoughts, there's no more pain
I'm in heaven, I'm a god
I'm everywhere, I feel so hot

It's not a habit, it's cool, I feel alive
If you don't have it you're on the other side
I'm not an addict (maybe that's a lie)

It's over now, I'm cold, alone
I'm just a person on my own
Nothing means a thing to me
(Nothing means a thing to me)

It's not a habit, it's cool, I feel alive
If you don't have it you're on the other side
I'm not an addict (maybe that's a lie)

Free me, leave me
Watch me as I'm going down
Free me, see me
Look at me, I'm falling and I'm falling.

It is not a habit, it is cool I feel alive I feel...
It is not a habit, it is cool I feel alive

It's not a habit, it's cool, I feel alive
If you don't have it you're on the other side
I'm not an addict (maybe that's a lie)
I'm not an addict...

If you want the .mp3 file,drop me a line.